Respected Hakeem Sahib Aslam O Alikum!I am affiliated with Ubqari from past 3 years. What was my life before these 3 year? I feel fear even after thinking of it. How I came back from that track and how I went on that I will explain that story today. I opened an eye in Muslim family but none of my family member discussed about namaz offering namaz is another thing. I have 3 elder brother and 2sisters. I am youngest. My parents provided me every facility of life. Best branded clothes, shoes, cars and every latest facility is in our home. My father is running his own business which is running very well thanks to ALLAH. There is no compulsion on us. Since I got senses I saw my siblings busy in music, films, fashion and etc. my sisters wear jeans and t shirts in home neither my father stopped them nor my mother. Everyone is busy in his own life. Once there was function in our home where with his friend his son also came, he became friend with my sister after few time my sister urged our parents and got them married with (now she is in Dubai and I start crying while I think of her current problems. May ALLAH bless her)
When I got young in this modern and eastern atmosphere I was always with music, Face book and friends. I don’t even remember that I make fool of how many boys. I felt strange relaxation while talking extremely dirty with boys. Whole night I used enjoy while to talk with boys on Face book and sometime video calling on Skype. I used to go to expensive boutique with my mother and used to buy latest eastern fashion clothes, and whenever I used to go to party with my mother she used to present me in front of other and said see my daughter is wearing best branded clothes I used to raise my head with proud. One night I lay on my bed to sleep and I felt that someone is moving hand on my body I woke up with fear but there was no one, this used to happen mostly. There was some invisible thing which was with me at night. I discussed it with my mother she considered it as my illusion. When I went to college I saw every boy was falling for me because I was beautiful and fashionable. There I became friend with one rich boy (U). He had very expensive car, after few time our friendship converted in to love and slowly we came close and I gave him my everything. As time passed I came to know that (U) has affairs with few other girls and he leaves girls after enjoying with them. I cried a lot, I shouted but he used to smile and go in his car. After few months his love fell off my head and came back to my normal life. Whole days I used to listen music, watch TV, and go to parties, and at night used to make fool of others. I didn’t care about my end, no Namaz, no Fasting and no Quran. During childhood a Qari used to teach us recitation of Quran but after that I never opened QURAN. I was enjoying my own life. I used to get up daily morning but only for me, to keep my body fit, there was a ladies park near our home I used to go there for jogging. There I became friend with a girl who used to walk in complete Hijab. After few days she gave me “Monthly Ubqari” as a gift and said do read it. Also introduced you and copied few of your Dars in my mobile and said you must listen to them. I skimmed magazine and placed it aside.
One night I was getting very bored suddenly it came to my mind that (A) gave me few Dars I should listen to them once. By coincidence its topic of “TOBAH”. Believe you me! I was shivering while listening to it and I was crying. I cried a lot, at same moment (A) called. While crying I asked her can I be forgiven? I never bowed in front of my RAB KAREEM, never took his name, since childhood I have done against his will can I be forgiven? She persuaded me with politeness that ALLAH is GAFOOR ur RAHEEM HE loves human more than 70 mothers if you ask for forgiveness with real intentions then HE will will will forgive you. You also ask for forgiveness with real feelings ALLAH will forgive you too. Next day I was unable to go to park, in afternoon my friend came to my home. After meeting her first question was that will you teach me how to offer NAMAZ? (A) Agreed happily, for few days she used to come regularly to my home and taught me NAMAZ and few MASNOON DUAs. I burned all my western clothes. I bought new dresses with my same friend, bought Hijab and since that day I am doing Hijab. Started playing Dars every time in house, by listening which my mother, my 2 brothers (who are married) their wives got also got impressed, now my mother has also started taking duppata, mother has started to offer the Namaz and when I go out of the house in hijab I feel a strange peace and protection. We got the meeting time after calling you and you gave the Wazifa
لَا اِلٰہَ اِلَّا اَنْتَ سُبْحَانَکَ اِنِّی کُنْتُ مِنَ الْظّٰلِمِیْن۔ بِحَقِّ اِیَّاکَ نَعْبُدُ وَ اِیَّاکَ نَسْتَعِیْنُ I recite it every time and nothing disturbs me now at night I sleep peacefully, Dars is always on either we are in home or in car. respected father's attitude is changed to a great deal and must goes to offer jummah, and I hope that soon he will start offering the five times namaz , Insha’Allah.
Some days ago a very good family's proposal came for me and my parents said “yes "them. My marriage is going to be held and after some time. Which is the first marriage in our family that will be held in simple way and according to sun'na and I have told this to everyone. My fiancé is also happy with this decision of mine. And my in laws are also approved and they are agreeing to tie the wed lock in the mosque, happily. (Alhumdullilah)
